Chapter Three: How Long Have I Been Here?

As I was wrecking my brain in confusion, the words from the book I had read earlier came back to me, “Love Addiction”. This was God’s funny way of revealing to me that I was a Love Addict. This revelation had hit me so hard that my mouth flew open and my jaw dropped. Immediately, I began to reminisce, and review all of my past relationships. I thought about how I hooked up with them and the reason we broke up. I realized that it was the love addiction that caused me to hook up with these men, and it was love addiction that caused me to break up with them or caused them to run away. To every single person reading this book you must learn this principle, what you don’t kill in your singleness will only transfer in marriage. Marriage is not the fire extinguisher to your lust, marriage is not the answer to your loneliness, and as for me and anyone else who is dealing with this disease; marriage was not the cure to my condition which was“love addiction.”

I wanted my husband to be what he could not and I was trying to make him what he was not. With every relationship I had, including my marriage, I was addicted to the ideological fantasy of love because I had not been taught that love is not a feeling but it is an action. I was searching for someone to fill the empty spot of happiness for me, when it was impossible. Happiness was something I had yet to conquer and in the end I had to ask myself this mystifying question: “How will I ever be happy if I can’t ever be happy”? I would be able to easily answer this question after I gave birth to my third baby, another little girl.

Excerpt from Moment of Clarity by Tameka Anderson

Moment of Clarity

If you have ever been or known someone who has suffered in their love life, most of their life, then this book will bless them. So many people suffer from a disease of the mind, more like an illness, that there is no medicine to cure and yet they have no clue they suffer from it. This book is a variety of stories that comprise the moment of clarity when that disease was made clear. It's a journal of events that led to the discovery and recovery of this mental illness that many battle with and few realize; love addiction.

Moment of Clarity: Diary of a Recovering Love Addict

by L.A. Say